Part One: I'm sorry.

I wish that things were better right now.

I am too sensitive, too expectant, too harsh.

You have only been you and I have been crazy, it's disappointing to me as well as it must be disappointing for you.



I am in love with you for being you and I don't know how I could ever be mad at you for that.

So, I made this blog because I love you.

I am going to write in it with everything that makes me smile, everything that reminds me of you when I am surfing the web, all of the songs that make me cry because I miss you to death. I am going to fill it with so much love that anyone who comes across this will be absolutely, completely disgusted with me because I am so full of sickening need for you.

And every time I feel angry at you, or angry at me, or angry at life, I will read it. I will read about how much I love you and then I will realize how stupid I am.

This is a never ending love letter. This is for you.

Maybe this will make up for all of the times I accused you of being anything less than amazing.